The Attractive Saleslady

This happened last year of May…

I was told by my wife to buy some groceries one Friday. As I was about to go outside the mall, I saw this attractive saleslady, dressed in tight fitting jeans and t-shit, wearing high heels.

My lust was activated again. Although I’d been telling myself to go home right away but as I said, my lust is something which is very powerful that oftentimes, I just keep losing the battle.

So I pretended to buy something as I went inside their store. After asking some information about their products and after I observed her supervisor went out for a while, I began my smooth moves.

When all left but me and the saleslady, with full confidence, I asked, “Is it ok we meet after your work?

She replied with a facial expression of getting playful, “Hah?! What are we gonna do, sir?”

“We’ll just eat and after I’ll drive you home.”

“Are you sure, sir?”

As I was making my own impression on her, with her sexy look and being vocal with the way she expressed herself, I was thinking she was easy to get and I can have a one stand with her.

I glanced at my watch. Obviously, I didn’t have much time left. In order to assure she shows up, I said, “Here’s 500. I’ll give you another if you show up.”

She was a bit shocked. Before she could say anything, I told her I’ll wait for her at a certain location on the agreed time. I mentioned my car plate number. I didn’t even wait for her yes. I abruptly left when her supervisor came back.

Guess what? She came and got inside the car.

She smiled and greeted me while breathing heavily, “Hi, sir!”

“Hi! Thank God, you showed up! I hope your boyfriend wouldn’t get mad about this.”

“Hahaha! As if I have a boyfriend!”

“So you don’t have a boyfriend?”

“Sir, let’s not talk about it. So where shall we go?”

A text came in. I looked at my cellphone and said, “Damn!”

She asked, “What’s wrong?”

“Something came up. I have to be home right away.”

“It’s ok, sir. I’ll just go with my friends. Ok?”

I answered, “Ok. I’ll just text you. Take care now,” as I gently touched her hair.”

She got out from the car. I knew I had the opportunity to fuck her but I had to attend immediately to my daughter who got high fever.

I noticed some mysterious forces, I couldn’t identify, which have been trying to pull me out from my carnal activities. I don’t know if I have to be grateful about it but all I know, this is better as long as my family continues to be intact and well.

– (excerpts from the upcoming book, The Carnal Man 2)

i don’t wanna be a homewrecker

Just yesterday, I was stuck on traffic when I saw this woman standing at the side of the street. She was waiting for a bus ride. Just like the others, she was wearing face mask and a face shield. What caught my attention was her outfit and hair. Here we go again! That mini skirt and long straight black hair again!

Since my car is tinted, in order for me to have a clearer view, I had my window down. Then I said to myself, “I think I know this girl.”

After some few seconds of stare and analyzing her facial and bodily features, I exclaimed, “Oh my God! This must be Karlene!”

I could be mistaken but I had to take a risk of calling her name. I was getting bored of my routine due to this bullshit pandemic. So I shouted, “KARLENE? IS THAT YOU?”

She looked at me surprised. She acted like getting embarrassed.

I shouted again as I removed my mask, “KARLENE! THIS IS ME, MIKE! YOU REMEMBER?”

She moved nearer and finally nodded while saying, “Oh, Mike! It’s you!”

I got excited and replied immediately, “Yeah, it’s me! Come and lemme give you a ride!”

Then she got inside the car while my heart skipped a beat. I took a deep breath and happily said, “Wow! It’s really you, Karlene! How are you?”

She chuckled in a sensual manner and said, “Well, I’m still the same. Pretty! Hehehe!”

My cock began to get hard. I whispered to myself, “If there’s just no pandemic, I can bring her to a motel right now and fuck her hard!”

She asked, “Mike, are you saying something?”

“I said, you really haven’t changed. Indeed, you’re still so sexy and beautiful!”

“I know you, Mike. You say to that to any pretty girl you meet. Is that right?”

“Hahaha! Anyway, let’s not talk about that. How are you these days? I mean, what have you been doing after I last saw you?”

All of a sudden she blurted out, “What are we doing? We’re not wearing masks, Mike! Maybe you have covid! I could get infected right now!”

I just laughed and responded, “Or maybe you’re the one who got covid!”

She laughed and sweetly smiled as she caressed my face, saying, “Mike, I miss you. I really do.”

I held her hand while my other hand was continually on the steering wheel. I couldn’t respond immediately.

We were silent for a while. Few minutes after, I said, “Karlene, I just want you to know that what happened to us was something special. Please don’t think it was just sex.”

“Mike, you don’t have to explain. I told you before I understand. We can’t be together. I’m sorry I refused when you wanted to fuck me at that time. Once is enough. If we do it again, I might be craving for it. I don’t wanna be a homewrecker. Your wife is pretty. I know she loves you so much. You got great kids. Keep it that way. Trust me! You don’t wanna fuck me again. Because if you do, I will make sure I will make you cum inside my pussy so I’ll be pregnant. You don’t want that. Is that right?”

We were just laughing to our heart’s content while I realized she was really serious when she said those words.

The Moving Love Letter

Dear Mike,

I never thought we reach this point into our relationship. All I can remember at first is you were just one of those persistent admirers. But what sets you apart is you never gave up.

Every time I look back, I always ask myself, why and how did I fall for you? Honestly, until now, there’s still some regret why I let myself fall for you. No matter how I look at our situation, this is wrong. When people know about our relationship, they will judge us. My greatest fear when the day comes when your wife finds out about us. 

Mike, I’m writing this letter for two reasons. First, to let you know I’m ready anytime to let you go if you decide you won’t see me again. I will understand. Don’t worry about me. The second reason, is to let you know that no matter how complicated our relationships is, I still thank God I met you. 

We’ve been seeing for many times now and I know you’re getting to know me better. I’m a person who deeply believes in the will of God. Our meeting is one example that there must be a reason why God allows these things to happen. If I wouldn’t have met you, I don’t know what would happen to me on that day when I had a terrible fever. If I wouldn’t have met you, I don’t know what would happen to my schooling when my brother was laid off from his job. 

Sometimes I think God is someone we can never understand. He works in mysterious ways. All I can do right now is surrender to His Will whatever it may be in the next days to come. 

When I found out I didn’t get pregnant, more questions came to me. I got more confused on what God really wants. Does He want me to stay away from you? Is He giving me a chance that I shouldn’t agree anymore to make love to you or else I get pregnant by that time?”

But if I believe our meeting has a reason, then God must have some a hand on why we reach into this point. 

Every time I’m with you, my mind thinks it’s wrong but my heart says otherwise. I can’t deny, I get excited to be with you. I just don’t show it. 

I may say less when we’re together but I hope this letter tells a lot on how much I feel for you. I love you, Mike. There are no other words I know to express how grateful I am of you. You’re kind. You listen to me always. You care and I feel you’re sincere. I’ve loved before but this is something extraordinary. This is unexpected. You shock me but you have a unique way of captivating me which I don’t have the strength to stop you.

You come to me too strong which is so hard to resist. You weaken me with your stare and touch but you make me experience a different kind of happiness which I never felt before.

As you keep telling me, we don’t know what the future holds for us but we know Who holds the future. So I guess it’s gonna be alright.

I trust you, Mike. I believe in you when you say you’ll take care of me. You’re now taking care of me more than I ask for. But when the day comes you will let me go, just tell me right away. I will let you go even if you don’t ask if I see it’s getting difficult with you and your family. That’s how I love you, Mike. I give you freedom whenever you will leave me. 

I’m crying as I write this letter in the middle of the night. I have to cry so to lessen my pain when that day comes. But please remember, you’re the best thing that ever happened into my life.”

Love,

Jill

– excerpts from The Carnal Man

so please, my love, kill me now

I love you but will you still love me if you know who really I am?

I’ve always loved you and I’ve always kept my vow before the altar.

No matter what, I’ll always love you but will you still love me if there’s nothing more I can give?

Now that you’ve known who really I am, let me prove to you that I can love you more.   I can let you do what you want even to the point of pain…even if it leads to my death. But just let me stay with you for I can never find another one who can truly take care of me.

Without you by side is like living in darkness…in hell…in void.

If you can no longer take me as I am, please kill me. I’d rather die than you abandoning me.

Kill me however you want it. Shoot me. Stab me. Strangle me. Suffocate me. Push me from the highest floor. Feed me to the lions or just give me a sleeping pill so I’ll wake up no more.

Will you do it, my love?

Even to my last breath, I’ll call your name. You name will be the last word I would utter.

But here you are, my love! You’ve never left me.

The way you looked at me in the church is still the same when we make love in the night.

The way you gave me your first kiss is still the same when you kiss me every time I’m downtrodden.

In front of the world, I’m a failure but in your eyes, I’m someone special. And so I’m able to soar.

You’re always at my side, lifting me up while you stay there waiting to catch me just in case I fall.

Who am I to deserve your great love for me?

My love, I’m incomplete for I can’t give you what you want. So if you can no longer take me as I am, please don’t hesitate to kill me. You don’t have to inform me. You don’t have to be guilty. There’s nothing to be afraid.

You’re just human. You have your own needs. Fulfill it if you must. Do it if you have to. You don’t have to suffer just because this is who I am.

I’m setting you free. Your true love you’ve given me for so many years is enough.

I can leave this world but know that I can’t live in this world if it takes me to be away from you. So please, my love, look straight into my eyes and tell me. You don’t have to pretend. You don’t have to lie.

Kill me. Burn me. Then replace me without any delay.

Let me just request one last thing before you cut off my breath. Let my ashes be spread in the seashore where you first gave your love for me. With your footprints there, I’ll walk with you whenever you feel alone and miserable. And just in case when life seems to turn you down, walk in the sand and feel my undying love for you.

When that happens, we’ve never been separated. We’ve never been torn apart. I never die. You’ll never die. We’ll live forever.

So please, my love… Kill me now.

– excerpts from The Massage Therapist

The Kingdom of God is in You

Daniel and May almost got separated when she found out everything but at the end, she forgave him unconditionally. It’s where he realized that he didn’t have to look and fall for someone else when she’s all that he needed. Beyond that, he had come into full circle with his awareness fully opened of the great love that May has been giving him for many years.

Oftentimes in our lives, we take for granted of the people who are just in front of our sight. We go outside and search for happiness when all along, it has already been there right besides us. The same case when we search for God and all other truths. We may have read many books and study the faiths of different religions.

We may have been to different churches or schools and listened to different teachers, philosophers, theologians, pastors and priests. We may have been on pilgrimages to various sacred tombs, hills and mountains. We may have spent countless hours in prayer, waiting to see the face of God and hear His voice. We may even expect that what happened to the saints and mystics would also happen to us. We try to find God where He can personally talk to us and transform our lives.

After all our long search, we could be upset that we didn’t find what we’re looking for when we fully realize that God is just all along within us.

In the hidden Gospel of Thomas, Jesus Christ said, “The kingdom of God is inside of you and all around you, not in buildings of wood and stones. The kingdom is inside of you and it is outside of you. When you come to know yourselves, then you will become known and you will realize that it is you who are the sons of the Living Father. But if you will not know yourselves, you will dwell in poverty and it is you who are that poverty. Recognize what is in your sight and that which is hidden from you will become plain to you.”

The kingdom is the true and lasting happiness which we all have been looking for…in the immemorial hands of time. Our perennial mistake is we don’t realize that We are Happiness, ourselves. We just have to actualize it. This is one of the greatest truths of who we really are. The other side of the kingdom can be found just in all around us who is literally the closest in our existence…spouse, partner, child, sibling, parent, relative or a friend. Unless we know and live in this truth, we will forever be, restless, empty and sad.

– excerpts from Oh, Daniel